Buscando

Buscaba un amor que-no-diera-lugar
a la clandestinidad, al engaño
Buscaba, si, —buscaba—

Detuve la búsqueda por aquí
y pareciera que la necesidad
de lo oscuro, es más … ¿?
…¿?
sólo más,
¿más que qué?
no, sólo más.

Me sigue moviendo lo-imposible
lo más simple y sencillo:
la alegría de vivir.

Hay si, una  tristeza y mucho-desencanto
lo-que-no-se-nombra
lo-que-no-cabe…
Y …entra agüevo,
no hay error: sés-loque-sés…

El agua ahoga, el fuego quema
¿la verdad y el amor? ¿qué?
y a mi qué… si los persigo.

ya no en los cajones
pere hay cojones…
para ver y saber y después ser… y eso:
sés-loque-sés…

Cada quién miente y engaña a su modo
y manera, lo que nadie soporta es
la sinceridad —se acaba el juego–

¿Para que tanto pensar?
si sólo se trata de vivir con alegría,
que chiste tiene, no, no hace sentido;
eso lo dejamos para los inocentes,
para los loquitos-de-manicomio
que-sean-alegres    son tontos…
ellos pobres.


Y si prescindiéramos de tanta suntuosidad
que distrae el sentido, y vemos de frente
siempre hay opciones, en la perspectiva de la muerte:

Placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, dos
que conviven, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, disfrutar un cariño, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, ir por el mundo con un ariño,
placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
comprometer el corazón, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, soñar, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, preparar un café, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, ver lo que
se tiene, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
ser lo mejor, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, mesura, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer,  complacer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, darse, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, complicidad, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, pareja, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, sinceridad, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placer, placer, imaginarse en el amor
 y el placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, amar, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, amar sin conveniencias, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
la vanidad, placer, placer, placer, construir confiaza,
placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, hacer
intimidad, placer, placer, placer, placer, hacer el amor
placer, placer, elegir, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, crecer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, aprender, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer, placer,
placer, placer, placeres aprehender y placer o placer.

Muchas opciones, buscaba una.